Not Physically
do you now those people who manage to change and you dont notice until they stop talking to you? that happend to me and a girl who used to be my bestfriend... i dont want to name names so ill just call her "A". we have been friends for the losngest time and when we were little we were both kinda chubby but in about grade 6 she shot up and lost all that weight. from grade 6 on she has been miss popularity and doesnt bother to talk to me any more because she is smaller than me... see for her she just hit puberty and for me i have to work at it like its a chore and i hate it! im constintly trying new work out plans and diets which i shouldnt be doing at my age i shouldnt be worrying about this stuff i should be having fun with my life and the people in it. but i cant not looking like i do. i really hope that my new years resolutions works becaus not once in my life have i ever worn a bikini. ive never gone for what i want in a store i go buy whats based on my size. now i know because of my height i wont ever be a small but i hate being a large i at least want to drop to a medium! this has been a struggle most of my life and i dont want to carry it on to my adult hood i want to live my life not worrying about my size just worrying about who i am emotionally and spiritually.. not physically!